Guan's Diary

2011-01-01T06:16:00.002+08:00

LETS ALL WELCOME 2011!!!!
SAY GOODBYE TO 2010!!

a new year has began.
may all you guys wishes come true.
a long journey ahead for everyone.
no one knows whats going to happen next.
think and choose your path slowly.
dont ever regret in things you do.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

2010-12-31T03:59:00.001+08:00

today its the end of 2010,
any resolutions yet anyone?

every year has been the same as before. haha.
nothing much actually happen this year though,
lets hope something nice and amazing things happen to me next year!!!

wish you happiness ! =)

2010-12-27T07:40:00.002+08:00

alright, after work, meeting them for a movie.
LITTLE FOCKERS! turning GREAT FOCKERS! LOL!

meet up them outside cine, and so unexpected, saw rachael.
also so unexpected that she joining us to watch so last min.
its like lol! haha. sorry mickey for letting you sit alone.
haha, its just so un-expected. haha

after movie, went to neverland to drink some beer.
next, lan-ning.

rachael went off to find her friends,
and we are on bus back home.

morning all guys!

2010-12-26T04:24:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas to everyone out there!!
7 more days and its a start of a new year.

a new year meaning start afresh!!!!
a new year, a new beginning...

2010-12-22T05:44:00.002+08:00

seriously,
fucking joke!
i am laughing on the ground! ROLLING!

2010-12-18T06:06:00.002+08:00

hudson lim quit dota????
QUIT MY ASS LA!!

went cyberdome to just have a game of dota.
fucking waste time.

after that game, ending up drinking 2 jugs of lao hu beer at neverland.
just back at home,
dont know what to do, waiting hair dry.

again and again, keep thinking of her.
is the only way of not thinking her is to get into another relationship?
fuck, so when is my next relationship coming?

hate the feeling of just thinking and cant do anything.
someone pls tell me what to do.
i'm really lost.

2010-12-16T04:25:00.003+08:00

back from butter,
she came with me, but left with other guy.
i was going to send her home when i saw him.
soft-hearted me, asked him to send her home.
fuck randall for giving her drink so much.
heartache seeing her in that state.

another day past,
and again, wanted to be selfish, but i cant.
nights girl.
nights all.

2010-12-15T03:51:00.004+08:00

back to blogging again. lol. its like fucking long can.
i think its long enough that no one bothers about my blog,
so i think its good for me to blog now.
today went out with friends to drink.
i still miss her alot. i know someone still loves her alot.
what to do?

you told me to be selfish,
i wanted to, but at the same time i dont want others to get hurt.
i tried to let go, but i cant.
she just kept appearing in my mind every single second.

i really cannot take it sometimes. just feeling to give it all up.
but i am afraid that i will miss any chances.

mixed feelings, i cried.

2010-03-13T04:32:00.002+08:00

its been a while since i blog. haha.
everyday its just working and working,
nothing much to blog about seriously.

oh yea, i am here to wish hudson lim shao wei happy birthday!!
sad that he is in camp man. lol.

went to casino this morning.
first time in casino!!!
shiok man!!
omg! the atmosphere in there is really amazing.
though i didnt bet, but when my friend bet,
the feelings is totally different.
the people there is totally crazy man!!
as though they dont have to work.
they can stay there all day all night. LOL

its really amazing to been in casino for the first time.
the money people bet there = monopoly money. LOL
hundreds and thousands cash of chips,
for a single bet,
only a few minutes of distribution of cards and viewing of cards,
thats it! you either lose 1k or win 1k. that fast!

50 dollars notes there = 10 dollars note. lol.
since i go there does not need any entrance fee($100),
everyday win 100 bucks also not bad.
1 day 100 bucks, 1 month i got 3000 bucks extra! lol!

just reach home from boat quay,
long time since i went drinking and singing.
gotta turn in soon if not tml cant be able to wake up for work.
nights world!

2010-02-01T11:48:00.000+08:00

nice song!! wonderful!! beautiful!! i like! =D

2010-01-20T03:32:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!

i rmb when i was young, my dad would organised party for me at my house, then friends from sg and msia will come celebrate my birthday.
we will be playing games, eating, chit chatting.
sg friends will be staying over my hse for that night.

those are the past, but now, grown up lor!!!
no more all these activities.
lazy to celebrate also. haha

thanks you guys for all the wishes!!!
oh ya, thanks ben for ur pressy!! =)

2010-01-16T04:07:00.002+08:00

Now you're gone,
I realize my love for you was strong,
And i miss you here now you're gone.
I've keep waiting here by the phone,
with your pictures hanging on the wall.

Is this the way its meant to be?
Only dreaming that you're missing me.
I'll be waiting here at home,
I'll be crazy now you're gone.

There's an empty place in my heart,
Without my Anna it will break apart.
It wont heal, it wont fade away,
I'll be thinking bout you everyday.

All i ever wanted

2010-01-16T04:04:00.002+08:00

All I ever wanted,
was to see you smiling

All I ever wanted
was to make you mine.

I know that I love you
oh baby why don't you see

That all I ever wanted
was you and me.

2010-01-14T09:05:00.003+08:00

keep listening to this song on the bus on my way home.

lol. listen till i fell aslp, and woke up by the bus driver, reached interchange. LOL

dont know why i woke, dont want take bus, and just walked back home .

gotta work later, hope i can wont be tired!

2010-01-06T03:20:00.003+08:00

felt quite sad for this guy.
he was actually a customer from my next door flower shop.
firstly, i thought he was auntie friend, but in the end, he wasnt. he is just a customer.

saw him often recently,
now i know the reason why.
he came to auntie shop to get flowers, because his gf was going to break with him.
his gf told him to give him 2 weeks to consider.
so within this 2 weeks, which ends at this saturday,
he has been coming auntie shop to get flowers for his gf everyday!!!
omg. dont know how much he has spent on those flowers for the past one week.

one day, when i going to work, i saw auntie making this huge bouquet of roses.
it consists of 99 roses, i think it costs ard 200+.
he was intending to gave her those flowers and ask her to be his wife on christmas eve,
but sad to say, she turned down his date.
she said that she doesnt want to go out on that day.
but...
his friend saw his gf was having dinner with some other guy on christmas eve.
WTF IS THIS ???
his friend didnt tell him about this, was afraid of him doing foolish things.

and as usual today, he came to auntie shop, and get some flowers.
feel kinda sad for him man. really.
i really hope that his gf, if she doesnt have the heart anymore, pls tell him straight in his face man!!!
rather than wasting his time, wasting all his effort, giving him false hope, and in the end, gave him the answer that he doesnt want to hear.

i find it rather funny and at the same time, sorry for this guy man.
haa. *shake head*

2010-01-03T04:34:00.002+08:00

dont know why out of a sudden,
i love this oldies.

聽說愛情回來過

在朋友那儿听说痴心的你曾回来过
想请他替我向你问候只为了怕见了说不出口
你对以往的感触还多不多
曾让我心碎的你我依然深爱著
在朋友那儿听说知心的你曾找过我
我要他帮我对你隐瞒只是怕见了面会更难过
我对以往的感触还那麽多
曾给我幸福的你我依然深爱著

有一种想见不敢见的伤痛
有一种爱还埋藏在我心中
我只能把你放在我的心中
这一种想见不能见的伤痛
让我对你的思念越来越浓
我却只能把你把你放在我心中.

2010-01-01T06:20:00.002+08:00

new whole new year ahead!!
many things may happen in this year,
is it good or bad ?
we dont know.

1 yr, 12 months, 52 weeks, 365 days,
its not short, yet its not long either.
life have been like that for my past 20 yrs,
birthday coming in ard 19 days. haha

doesnt have much expectation on my birthday after new year eve.
its just a birthday to me. haha. wish me happy birthday will be great! =)

finally have the courage to let go,
a new year its really a new year. amazingly. haha.
feeling rather rojak now. happy? sad? jealous? heart break? relieve? haha.
mixture i would say.

gotta turn in now.
tml still working man!
now i really wanna use that short form FML!!!! LOL!
nights all
nights world
farewell, my wonderful year 2009.
welcome 2010!

end.

2010-01-01T04:05:00.002+08:00

ITS 2010 now!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

another year has started, new resolution for everyone!
mine sharing ? haha.

hope this year will be good for me!!!

everyone now in ns, and i started working.
trying to save as much money as possible!
wanna earn more and more money this year!!
i wanna drive lamborgini!! =D

2009-12-24T13:27:00.003+08:00

WOOHOO!! just woke up!
slpt on the sofa while watching tv at ard 8+pm,
just woke up at 1.30pm today! rofl!!
i have slpt a total of 17 hours which i dont even know. LOL!

today is christmas eve!!!
shld be meeting up the rest later!

enjoys your night everyone!

wishing all of you MERRY XMAS!!!!

2009-12-23T19:51:00.002+08:00

wooo! didnt slp for the whole day from last night.
need to reach sch at 6.30am, to get ready for the sec 1 books selling.
went to prepared at 4+am.

after which, went to watch "avatar"
its a nice movie! but its more than 2 and 1/2 hours long!
if anyone watching that movie, rmb to go toilet before watching. haha.

not going to slp, gonna tahan till night!
slp all the way and wake up early.
meeting them tml.!

2009-12-16T03:48:00.003+08:00

as for today, been quite moody. dont know why also.
think my 'ta yi ma' come ar. LOL
vin, xuan xuan and hao are staying my hse for today!
yup yup! been a long time that i have shop so long.
walk and walk.
the last time was past few months back,
when i went shopping with her. memories ah. haa

oh ya, went to city square. saw wee lee! omfg! he turn fit man!
kinda miss those times when we gather ard at night, chill and slack.
now all are having their tests, while the rest are in the army.
GOOD LUCKS to those having their tests!!
CONGRATS on those who have just POP!

after that, we went to pasar malam which is near my hse.
bought some finger food to eat,
hao enjoy the skin alot ar! lol!

now they are all aslp,
yes, was indeed damn tired today.
but dont know why i cant slp yet!
wth is wrong with me man?!?!
been staying up late then slp.
tired but cant slp!

keep watching the xin guang.
nice singing competition.
make me wanna sing now! haa.

alright, gotta continue and watch ppstream!

nights all! ^^

2009-12-06T00:15:00.003+08:00

just got back from my cousin's wedding dinner.
this is what i keep hearing from the MC there.
"Lets bless our new couple, live happily ever after, their love will be 'long long, nine nine'"

quite a number of weddings dinner going out,
while i am on my way there, saw a couple.
ours on the 3th story, whereas theres another new couple on the 2nd story.
why so many ppl get married today?
what so special about today? lol.

back at home, sian sian sian!!
the rest going army on the following week.
I WILL BE ALONE LIAO!
luckily i installed the game WOW,
can play at home for the mean time. hahaha.

i just feel much better,
these things finally are becoming numb to me.
i dont know why, just feel that it is good.
kinda random....

2009-11-22T05:55:00.002+08:00

another day just past, day after day,
sick of boredom!
everyday do nothing. fucking sian!!!

cant find a job! dont know what to do.
dont know what to work.
everything dont know dont know dont know!

i wanna get a job fast!
work, work and just work!
i want more and more money!
so no worries on the things i spend.
and can also give some to my family.
i want a gf!

2009-11-20T22:36:00.005+08:00

i just came across this thing, its true that we heard enough of girls rule,
now hear ours!

1. MEN are not mind readers!
2. Crying is blackmail!
3. Ask for what you want.
4. Make this clear! : Subtle/Strong/Obvious hints do not work. JUST SAY IT!
5. YES and NO are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.
6. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it.
(That's what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.)
7. A headache that last more than 17 months is a problem.
(See a doctor)
8. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument.
(In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 days)
9. If you wont dress like Victoria's Secret girls, dont expect us to act like soap opera guys.
10. If you think you're fat, you probably are.
(Don't ask us.)
11. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you
sad or angry, we meant the "other one".
12. You can either ask us to do something OR tell us how you want it done. NOT BOTH.
(If you already know best how to do it, do it yourself.)
13. Whenever possible, please say whatever you have to say during commercial.
14. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.
15. ALL men see in ONLY 16 colours, like Windows default settings.
(Peach, for example, is a fruit, not a colour. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea
what mauve is.)
16. If we ask what is wrong and you sa "nothing", we will act like nothing's wrong.
(We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.)
17. If you ask a question and you dont want an answer to, expect an answer you
dont want to hear.
18. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine.
(Really!!!)
19. Dont ask us what we are thinking about.
(unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as computer games, soccer or golf)
20. You have enough clothes.
21. You have too many shoes.
22. I am in a shape. ROUND is a shape!

LOL!

2009-11-19T16:38:00.003+08:00

林宥嘉 - 说谎

是有过几个不错对象

说起来并不寂寞孤单

可能我浪荡让人家不安

才会结果都指望

我没有什么阴影魔障

你千万不要放在心上

我又不脆弱何况那算什么伤

反正爱情不就都这样

我没有说谎我何必说谎

你懂我的我对你从来就不会假装

我哪有说谎

请别以为你有多难忘

消失真的不是我逞强

我好久没来这间餐厅

没想到已经换了装潢

角落那窗口闻的到玫瑰花香

被你一说是有些印象

我没有说谎我何必说谎

你知道的我缺点之一就是很健忘

我哪有说谎

是很感谢今晚的相伴

但我竟然有些不习惯

我没有说谎我何必说谎

爱一个人没爱到难道就会怎么样

别说我说谎

人生已经如此的艰难

有些事情就不要拆穿

我没有说谎是爱情说谎

它带你来骗我说可我没有可能有希望

我没有说谎

祝你做个幸福的新娘

我的心事请你全遗忘

2009-11-15T05:57:00.003+08:00

just got back from zhihui birthday.
whao! nice change 12 element.
been really down for the whole night.

why did you want to tell me?
i dont wish to know,
i dont want to know.
spoiled my mood.

2009-11-01T06:47:00.003+08:00

i suddenly felt that i miss you.

2009-10-10T03:15:00.002+08:00

fucking taiwan guy. LOL. is actually steven friend. LOL.

left 4 dead intro in hokkien. watch these 2 if u havent. =)

2009-10-09T06:33:00.020+08:00

hey yo! here are some of the pictures taken at genting highland.
too many pictures, thats why lazy to post.
now its 6.40 in the morning and cant get to slp,
so decided to post some of the pictures.
its damn fun hanging out with them.
its really a nice trip there.

this is how me and weelee slp on the bus while on the way there. LOL

these are taken at a club there.

THEME PARK!!

random pics!

on our way back!

the bus we took while on our way back its for more ex. bus ticks.

but i dont know why we took it.

got massage chair, tv, games. SONG!

i slp all the way back! ROFL!

2009-10-01T05:32:00.002+08:00

currently is 5.30am,
getting ready to set off to wlds.
meeting them at 5.45am.
guess i am late!! siao siao siao!!

just today, before going to genting,
i have vomitted 4 times at joe hse!
ate the maggie mee, vomitted the maggie mee,
drink the soup, vomitted the soup,
smoke a few cig, vomitted the smoke.
WTF!!! i dont know what happen to me!!!
hope i dont vomit on the way there.
GOD BLESS ME!!!

gonna get back on sunday i think.
miss you guys!!
and miss me as well =D
sayonara~

2009-09-20T08:53:00.002+08:00

work wasnt busy ytd i would say.
until now i am still awake. haa

went to sing with jevonne, jia hui and kavin at a pub.
have some fun singing with them.
after which, hudson came over to find me after his work.
we decided to go catch a movie.

thanks kavin for the ride to cine.
actually hudson and me are going to watch a love movie.
fucking gay can!!!!
in the end, we watched phobia 2.
actually consists of 5 stories.
the last one is a funny one. haha.
it did freak me out 2 to 3 times due to the loud sound effect.
argghh!!!

went back home and found that joe was still awake.
watched "The Hurt Locker" on the web.
really a "near-perfect" movie i would say.
its about the US army going over to some arab places,
mostly on defusing bombs!! fucking BIG BALLS SIA!!!
not a bad movie, but its not out yet. LOL!!

time to slp!!
guess my eyes are tired.
morning guys!! X)

2009-09-11T13:05:00.003+08:00

hao and mickey is getting in camp today.
haha. time flies real fast.
from a counting of 22 days from mickey nick,
and now, both of them are in camp le.
and next monday will be vin's turn.
wonder how vincent will look like when he is "botak"
LOL!!
slowly, one by one going in army.
whereas for me, its time to look for a proper job!!
damn stress sia!!!!!! ASSS!!

2009-08-30T04:09:00.002+08:00

just reached home from a movie.
its "the final destination"
went to watch with vin, his gf, joe and xb.
damn long never see xb,
but he still the same, fucking di siao me, a msian!!!!! NNB!!
i am gonna turn to PR SOON!!!
MUAHAHAHHAAHAHAH!!!
sorry shi ya, i didnt know i ended work so early,
if not sure watch earlier movie, haha. psps =X
meet up with you guys soon!!

i will just give that movie a 2.5 out of 5 stars.
its cool thats in 3D, but we were just paying movie ticks to watch people die in many disgusting manners!! quite cool acutally. HAA!
exams are over, gonna plan for what to do after i graduate[ if i pass my modules =) ]

pretty tired now,
gonna go bath and slp!!
nights all!!

2009-08-20T22:12:00.008+08:00

LOL!!! WTH IS THIS VIDEO!! HAHA!!

2009-08-20T15:16:00.002+08:00

jsut woke up at home,
having flu!!!
sneezing here and there!!!
and also headache!!
omg la!! how am i going to work like that???

2009-08-12T14:42:00.001+08:00

i didnt know i was that strong,
its not that i gotten over,
i just dont know how i did it.
i wanted to be back to how we were together last time,
maybe that wasnt that important afterall.
the important thing was to see you happy,
thats why...

i think i can stop worrying that much
since theres someone nice to take care of her.
now i shld start worrying about MYSELF!!!!
haha.

exams are coming!!
i am gonna graduate soon!!
what am i gonna do in future?
am i going to continue study?
i wanted to study music in lasalle,
but is this a good choice?
ARGHGGGGHHHGGHH!!!
dont know la dont know la!!!

2009-08-05T08:41:00.008+08:00

just got back from joe hse,
was intended to go sleep,
but something just kept me awake.
so decided to take morning bus back to msia.
tired tired tired ar!!!
slp slp slp!!!
HOME SWEET HOME!! =)

many thoughts.
what am i talking last night?
why do you and me feeling the same thing?
simple conversation with you,
asking question to care about you,
sometimes you just ignore,
sometimes you just reply when you feel like.
so am i enjoying chatting?
is it because of me that why you behaving like that?
i dont know...
it doesnt matter afterall,
just some thoughts i have.

2009-08-03T03:02:00.001+08:00

pay is getting !!!!!
damn poor for this month.
no $$ no $$ no $$!!!!!!
but after getting the pay,
gotta start returning ppl money le.
sian sian.
1/2 gone!!
blogger still got problem, sian. no colours again. haa

what so good about being a good guy?
bad guys always win in the end.
good guys only win in dramas and story,
in real life,
its the other way round.

2009-07-30T06:41:00.002+08:00

OMG!!!!!
yes you are right,
i miss it badly.
i shldn have accepted it.
i miss you badly.

i followed what you told me to,
i watched it alone,
i listened it with earpiece,
thinking about the past,
eyes filled with tears eventually.

touching song,
great voice,
sweet memories....

2009-07-26T15:51:00.001+08:00

having some problem on blogger,
cant really change fonts or colour.
dont know why.

slpt early in the morning at 9,
waking up now to prepare to work.
haa, luckily i still be able to wake up.
if not i am gonna be late for work.

went to little india last night,
to have indian food for our dinner,
funny things happened,
went to cineleisure afterwhich,
to watch frankie live performace.
some sort of heavy metal i can say.
admire those vocalist sia,
being able to sing on the stage whereby so many ppl are watching you perform.
and there was this *ah gua*
doing some funny expression and his/her action,
cb!! fucking disgusting, and its making us all puke!!!
*if beating up someone is not a law, i think he/she is dead by now*

2009-07-21T23:33:00.004+08:00

Dear Penis

came across the video from a friend.
like to share it to you here.
funny~ just check it out.

doing nothing alone at home,
thinking about stuff that i shldnt be thinking about.
argh~

2009-07-16T18:12:00.003+08:00

was listening to radio while on the way to work ytd.
and i heard this song
最幸福的事 - 梁文音
i still remembered you telling me that this is really a sad song.
after hearing it, i agreed with you man.
her voice is nice.
cherish your loves one.
once its gone,
no point in regretting.
=)

2009-07-14T14:48:00.004+08:00

this song is nice. listen it =)

listen to it just makes me feel relax and happy.... ^.^

2009-07-12T06:33:00.001+08:00

Cuz' we lost it all,
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now its just too late
And we cant go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect...

2009-07-11T13:54:00.002+08:00

still not dead,
able to carry on with my life still.
haa.

and now its back to daily routine,
wake up, sch, work, dota/drink, slp.
everyday is like that. BORING man!!!

feel like working another job,
wanna work in a new environment.
actually was thinking working in a club.
sounds interesting eh!!!
but still is just a thought.

2009-07-07T03:11:00.002+08:00

back frm bq.
went to drink only a bottle of heineken each,
with hudson, vincent, charles and meldryne.
sitting there chill. talking cock and now back to joe hse.

its kinda good to see that things getting better for ya yea?
life arent bad after all arent they? haa..
good lucks for your interview later!!

nights all.

2009-07-01T03:50:00.004+08:00

went to bb with lao peh, ah gong, ah ma and zho gong.
my ah gong si bei eh lim sia.
lol

吃不能吃, 睡不能睡
没有了你, 全都不对
我都学不会, 把爱敷衍
用笑容来把眼泪催眠
笑不能笑, 哭不敢哭
人不像人, 鬼不像鬼
朋友都说这, 不过失恋
但我却连呼吸都胆怯

this song really described me for the past few days till now,
wondering when can i forget her.
but just cant bear it.
can do nothing to win her heart back,
just needs time to forget her.

能不能不爱了
因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了
却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了
爱情它太痛了
我痛得快死了
却无法把爱割舍...
我不能睡...
我不能够
不能够不爱了..

2009-06-28T05:05:00.004+08:00

its now 5am in the morning,
i still havent slp,
yet i am not feeling even tired.

wah, today 933fm is going against me isit!??!!
everytime listening to 933 didnt heard of any alin songs,
kns!! today take bus to work,
get to hear her songs for 3 times!! neh neh pok!!!

我舍不得
可是时间回不去了
爱你很值得
只是该停了
没有我你要好好的
我舍不得
最后一次抱紧你了
我们错过的
错了就错了
不用担心我
我走了..

2009-06-27T14:40:00.002+08:00

no matter how i close my eyes,
and force myself to slp,
i cant get to slp!!!!
its now 2.40,
time to get to work.
my mind is keep repeating what i heard ytd.
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!

2009-06-27T05:56:00.004+08:00

thanks for sorting things out today,
glad that your answer is not dont know again.
this is not what i expected to happen,
but this is what you want,
yea, and i am gonna respect your decision.

i dont know this thing gonna drag me for how long,
just hope it will be over soon. real soon.

its really happy to be with you,
though is like only one month,
thanks everything for the first day i know you.
you brought me lots of laughter,
i know lots of stuff from you,
know lots of songs from you.
you are just something special to me,
you are just beautiful to me.
i myself dont know why either.

things come and things go,
maybe this is the point where i going to let go.
its really bu se de for me,
but it got no point either.

i need a brain wash man!!
whoever knows where has a brainwash centre,
pls contact me,
how much also nevermind!!!

p/s: i love you.

2009-06-24T05:45:00.002+08:00

watched transformers 2 earlier on,
its a 2 1/2 hours movie.
didnt know this movie is so fucking long.
poor bladder,
i am have holding on after the movie started half an hour ago.
i didnt want to miss any parts of the movie,
and so i continue watching till it finished!! HAA..
its a nice show!! gotta catch it!!

我以为我承受
以为从此就自由
我尝试着快乐
快乐却不陪着我
爱没有回来了
你已经离开我
却一直住在我心中...

after so long, i thought things arent that complicated afterall,
but it nots what i think.
i just cant get over it.
its really been so long,
and i am still dwelling over it.
just useless....

2009-06-14T06:37:00.002+08:00

watched this movie just now,
this movie tells us to make our decision wisely,
every wrong move the guy on the left,Walter Garber, makes,
causes a hostage on the train to be killed,
whereas on the right who called himself, "ryder", was the hijacker.
its really a nice movie,
watched it if there are free time for you.

was late for my work today, sianz!!!
during working, suddenly reminds me of you,
there was this lady,
who was sitting infront of the cashier where i usually stand,
has a strong perfume smell which is same as you.
cant believe that perfume was so sensitive to my nose. haa.

2009-06-09T15:02:00.002+08:00

been working for the past few days,
today finally not working!!!
as well as wednesday and thursday, haa
waiting for charles to reach joe hse,
going over to amk to study for the next few days.

congrats for vin,
found his loves one. xuanxuan~~~
LOL!! cb hud whom the only one to pronouce the name in a cb way. LOL

waiting for transformer 2 to be release!!!
who wanna watch??

2009-05-28T12:45:00.003+08:00

its kinda been a long time since i blog.
nothings special every single day.
one day after another,
work and work and work.

vincent is away to china,
hope he is having fun out there.
rmb to buy gifts for us dude!! LOL

just got back from school for 10-12 lesson.
damn boring, go school only for 2 hours. haa
came back to joe hse to slack for a while,
leaving for work later.

was on the way home and alot of things just came into my mind.
wasnt really know what exactly i was thinking,
but just alot of random stuff.

something confusing me,
something makes me wondering,
something irritates me,
something....

2009-05-14T04:20:00.003+08:00

suddenly feel like blogging.
i am now in msia, at home.
cant slp. sisters are waking up to go sch,
yet i still cant slp.

dont know why,
just couldnt get myself to slp.
maybe was worrying about something, or someone. hmm..

took john's vespa out to eat just now.
lj fucking bike. LOL.
but quite fast though.

playing dota with charles, hud and john.
going school straight. afraid that cant wake up if i going to slp.
hope u are doing fine...

2009-05-06T18:04:00.002+08:00

dyed my hair ytd,
wanted it to be ash,
but in the end still brown.

dont have sch today,
but didnt go for work,
gotta leave for grandma house.

oh yea, heard from xb that his gf is sick,
hope she is doing fine right now,
get well soon!! =)

been slacking at home now,
eyes damn pain.
feeling so xin ku!!

laugh out loud myself!! haa..
i feel like making a fool out of myself.
hated myself being so soft-hearted.

2009-05-04T10:29:00.003+08:00

its been a while since i blog.
nothing much happen actually. haa.
everyday the same thing happen.
sch, work, drink, slp
sch, work, drink, slp
sch, work, drink, slp

but not everyday drink la.. haha..

currently now in sch.
has to start taking temperature for the stupid swine flu again.
if one NP student get infected with that disease,
holidays for NP students!!!! HAHA..

alright, back to project!! =D adios!

2009-04-27T04:01:00.002+08:00

Brad Kane & Lea Salonga - A Whole New World

(Brad)
I can show you the world
Shining, shimmering, splendid
Tell me princess
Now when did you last let your heart decide?
I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over sideways and under
On a magic carpet ride

A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No-one to tell us no
Or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming

(Lea)
A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But when I'm way up here
It's crystal clear
That now I'm in a whole new world with you
(Now I'm in a whole new world with you)

Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feeling
Soaring, tumbling, free-wheeling
Through an endless diamond sky

(Lea)
A whoe new world
(Brad)
(Don't you dare close your eyes)

(Lea)
A hundred thousand things to see
(Brad)
(Hold your breath it gets better)

(Lea)
I'm like a shooting star
I've come so far
I cant go back to where I used to be

(Brad)
A whole new world
(Lea)
(Every turn a surprise)

(Brad)
With new horizons to pursue
(Lea)
(Every moment gets better)

(Brad)
I'll chase them anywhere there's time to spare
Let me share this whole new world with you

(Brad)
A whole new world
(Lea)
(A whole new world)

(Brad)
Thats where we'll be
(Lea)
(Thats where we'll be)

(Brad)
A thrilling chase
(Lea)
(A wonderous place)

(Together...)
For you and me.........

2009-04-27T01:46:00.002+08:00

watched friday the 13th.
its actually not that scary,
just that the sound is fucking damn loud!!!!
i tio cua at the starting of the movie!!
mutha fuckeer!!!!! fucking thunder!!

now waiting for transformer to come out!
i am gonna watch that movie.
the preview seems to be nice.

tml schooling at 8,
gotta turn in soon.

take care guys..

2009-04-21T22:25:00.007+08:00

got back frm spore today.
got a new company at home.

just when i open the door,

i saw this.

a black sausage dog running around in my house. LOL.

he was actually given by one of my dad friend to us.

kinda cute though. damn active.

keep jumping here and there.

2009-04-20T10:36:00.004+08:00

today first day of school.
and also the last sem for me.
wake up much earlier so that i wont be taking bus crowded with the freshie.

been watching movies for cont nights.
"Knowing" in cinema,
"Marley and Me" online streaming,
"Shinjuku Incident" in cinema,
"Fast and Furious 4" in cinema.

i want to watch "Transformer" and "Friday 13th"
who wanna watch with me?

been moving my all my wanted files from C drive to D drive.
wanna reformat my comp today,
so that i can play dota with them.
arranging all the songs, projects etc.
when browsing through the photos...
smiles.

anyway, been working almost everyday.
finaly 2 days off from work.
ytd went to drink at iguana with vin.
all thanks to that tequila which make me slp better.

我有dimples! =D

2009-04-16T03:54:00.002+08:00

just got back from boat quay,
finished up the balance ytd.
today was damn tired after my work.
but only night time is time for me to play.
the next day i wake up,
need to get to work again le.
tml working again.
haa.

2009-04-12T06:14:00.001+08:00

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2009-04-12T06:01:00.004+08:00

i thought i have moved on,
but i am not.
i am still staying at the same point.
why am i still there?

i just cant take it anymore.
tonight happened too much things.
wanted to make hao drunk was our motive.
thanks to xb who send him back.

we were eating at the prata shop,
a lady wanted to call police,
because of some loud noise we made,
in the end vin and yang nearly got into a fight.
tried to stop the fight.
bernard going crazy over his gf and he got agitated.
wtf is this happening?
arent we friends?
luckily everything was fine in the end
and there we went back home.
hand got cut without knowing it.

i am sorry for asking you here.
mainly because i still miss you.
didnt expect u will be going back drunk, vomitted,
sorry, i apologised to you sincerely.

blame my personality.
no temper.
just hate it.
still waiting for miracle to happen. haa.

2009-04-11T15:31:00.002+08:00

finally no work today!
i just realised i have been working for the past 8 days!
woo!! i gonna break my pay record!

tonight going to be hao birthday celebration at youbar.
his birthday is actually on 14th of april.
tonight is going to be happening i think.
and i hope it will be.
cause i wanna enjoy myself today!!! haha.

噢~爱请问怎么走
我一个人翻过山越过海
只为你对我好过
这份爱前所未有
噢~爱为什么不懂
我也不懂谁劝我谁爱我
谁可以让我解脱
你的微笑的温柔的负重~~

2009-04-09T11:17:00.003+08:00

have been working for the past few days.
today was actually off,
but plans changed and i went back to work.
this week only saturday is off. LOL
xb gonna kp me "dog" everytime i work, dont know why. lol!!

went to raining ytd,
drink till late night,
was damn tired,
but dont know why i woke up before my alarm everyday.
wanted to go back slp but just cant..

later working at 2.
going there to pluck the chicken backside hair again. haa.
going to start school soon.
a new sem and the last sem.

hows everyone in carefree?
kinda lost contact with most of them le.
gonna meet up with them soon.
take care guys!!

祈望越大
失望越大

2009-04-02T10:02:00.002+08:00

having mahjong ytd
won quite abit. haha..

nothing much special ytd.
bernard and zhi hui came over to joe hse last night.
they watched "coming soon" online
i was too tired,
fell asleep while watching half way.. or maybe not even half way.. haha
now in school programming again for our project...

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Dont remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
And i really dont know what to do
I'm just a little too not over you, not over you

2009-04-01T08:51:00.002+08:00

another sleepless night.
was very tired after my work,
but at the same time cant slp. haa.
went to labordor park till 6.
first to reach school again..
teacher coming in at 9.30
hope he can help up with my programs.

this is our final week,
having review on friday
really hope our grp can pass. =)
good lucks guys!!

2009-03-31T03:11:00.002+08:00

Nobody - WonderGirls

You know i still LOVE you baby,
And it will never change

I want nobody, nobody but you
I want nobody, nobody but you
I want no one else but you
Can't have anyone but you
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Why are you trying to push me away?
you know that I hate it,you ignore what im saying
Why are you trying to send me to other?
You push me away like a little
each day why?

Saying that this is for my own good
Saying that you are just not worth it
Please, stop it right now coz'you know me enough that i will come back to you no matter what!

I want nobody, nobody but you
I want nobody, nobody but you
I want no one else but you
Can't have anyone but you
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody, nobody but you
I want nobody, nobody but you
I want no one else but you
Can't have anyone but you
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

All the pushing won't change my feelings
I am happy to have you,
more than willing to please you
i'm begging you please
don't walk away from me
Coz' i can't be happy away
from your side

Saying that this is for my own good
Saying that you are just not worth it
Please, stop it right now coz'you know me enough that i will come back to you no matter what!

I want nobody, nobody but you
I want nobody, nobody but you
I want no one else but you
Can't have anyone but you
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody, nobody but you
I want nobody, nobody but you
I want no one else but you
Can't have anyone but you
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I don't want nobody, body
I don't want nobody, body
Life is unperfect without seeing you
I cannot have anyone but you... ahhh

I want nobody, nobody but you
I want nobody, nobody but you
I want no one else but you
Can't have anyone but you
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody, nobody but you
I want nobody, nobody but you
I want no one else but you
Can't have anyone but you
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Rap:
BacK to the days when we were
so young and wild and free
Everything we had back then
was like a dream
If only i could turn back time
Why do you keep on pushing me away?
why do you push me away?
I don't want nobody, nobody,nobody. nobody but you

2009-03-31T03:07:00.001+08:00

xiaobai showed me this video.. nice song and nice dance.. =)

2009-03-30T10:30:00.002+08:00

went back to msia ytd with camen and joe instead. haha..
ytd was sunday,
damn lots of people at city square.

went to a hongkong restaurant for lunch,
after which, joe decided to go for a thai massage!!!
thanks to him and camen psychoness,
i went with them.

it just last for half an hour (half-body massage for 36ringgit).
feel abit more relax after they cracked your bones here and there.
went back spore after that to meet up with vincent.

was deciding which pub to go after our dinner.
finally camen chose the honey pub *if i rmb the name correctly*
ken and his friend came later.

slpt at ard 5+
and woke up itself at 10+
i wonder why am i not tired and woke up so early..
.......

2009-03-29T11:55:00.004+08:00

finally its sunday!! my working days are all over for this week.

finally can rest!!!

damn tired la, everyday work frm noon to midnight.

later will be going back msia,

because out of a sudden, camen wanted to go back with me.

maybe vincent too.. LOL!!
its good though,
then i wont be going back home alone...

because if i going back alone,

THE JOURNEY ITS DAMN LONELY!!

manage to get some photos from the web about aburiyatei.

feel free to drop by.. =)

the shop!

i love this! the chicken skin!

chicken wings!

and alots more!!! must give it a try on my next pay! =)

2009-03-28T07:14:00.001+08:00

was rather tired
but still cant get to slp..
doesnt feel like working later..
ARGH!!!!

2009-03-28T06:22:00.004+08:00

after all the sorrows and pain,
alot of things went through my mind.
i dont deny that i was really in love with her,
thats why i continued,
to get closer with her,
to be with her.

slowly, she came into my life.
we have been tgt for almost one month,
its kinda short, but i did learn alot of things from this relationship.
i was the one who suggested to break off,
because i didnt want to see her suffer,
troubled by our problems.

though in this relationhip we have lots of pain,
theres still happy times when we were tgt.
during those times, it was really my happiest moments ever.
seeing her almost everyday,
going out with her,
hear her singing her favourite songs,
and lots more.
but all these didnt last long,
these moments have became my sweetest memory.

i didnt regret at all to start this relationship with her.
so pls, dont blame yourself.
we started off beautifully and i was very shy then,
and i want this to end it off beautifully as well.

i think this is a turning point for me in my life.
i wasnt able to think well and say well in the past,
but i have learnt alot from her.
she changed me bit by bit.
i have try to understand things slowly,
maybe not very specific.
i have try to make better decision carefully.
she tried her best,
i can feel it from the bottom of my heart.

no one is to blame,
there is no right or wrong.
hope after tonight,
day after day,
you are living better and better.
i said this before,
i said that you are really a strong girl.
and you didnt prove me wrong.

i am not just some passerby friend,
any problem you have, you can still look for me.
i will be by your side always, i promised.
hope to be your best friend too. =)

and i guess,
its really the time for me to move on.
up till now, i still dream of you every night.
images of you just keep flashing through my mind day and night.
take good care of yourself.
right now, get well soon.
hope next time i see you,
you are healthy and as cheerful as possible. =)

PS: baby, i love you...

2009-03-27T11:12:00.002+08:00

hang over last night.
damn shack and tired.
working later too.
has been working for almost whole week to keep myself busy.
finish my breakfast, cont to finish my project ba.
next week gonna review...

我们回不到过去,
就让过去变成回忆...

2009-03-25T03:41:00.003+08:00

today rui xin's birthday. all the stuff came over to tei to wish her happy birthday.
after work, change of plan, went to find vin and hud.
tired tired tired
feel like dying..
my heart doesnt let go...

When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out In Your Arms

2009-03-22T04:26:00.003+08:00

When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out In Your Arms

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.

This was the scene of ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water. We had a kid, I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school. Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life.

It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her. Dew said, "You are the kind of man who best draws girl's eyeballs." Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we just married, my wife said "Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls." Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn't help doing so.

I moved Dew's hands aside and said, "You go to select some furniture, O.K.? I've got something to do in the company." Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised her to go and see with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me. However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt. Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together or, I was lounging before the computer, visualising Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slight joking way. "Suppose we divorce, what will you do?" She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.

Once again, Dew said to me. "He Ning, divorce her, O.K.?" Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.

When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. "I've got something to tell you". She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want to divorce. I raised the serious topic calmly. She didn't seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, "Why?" I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer turned her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me. "You are not a man!" At that night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

A late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fell asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again. She brought up her divorce conditions. She didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month's time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal life as possible. Her reason was simple. Our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage broken. She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, "He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day?" This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, "I remember." "You carried me in your arms." She continued, "So, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning." I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage with a romantic form.

I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. "No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce." She said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms.

She closed her eyes and said softly. "Let us start from today, don't tell our son." I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for bus, I drove to office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realised that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, "The outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there."

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualisation of Dew became vaguer.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger.

I didn't tell Dew about this.

I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, "It seems not difficult to carry you now." She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, "All my dresses have grown fatter." I smiled. But I suddenly realised that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger.

I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head. Our son came in at the moment. "Dad, it's time to carry mum out." He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, "Actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old." I held her tightly and said, "Both you and I didn't notice that our life was lack of such intimacy."

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, "Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious." She looked at me, astonished. Then she touched my forehead, "You got no fever." I moved her hand off my head. "Sorry, Dew. I can only say sorry to you. I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you."

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into cry. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.

When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favourite. The salesgirl asked me to write the greeting words on the card. I smiled and wrote. "I'll carry you out every morning until we are old."

2009-03-18T10:17:00.002+08:00

罗志祥-第二顺位
作词:严云农
作曲:曹轩宾
专辑:潮男正传

一直是我陪你去躲回忆里的雨
你无心的叹息有心碎的声音
他的好他的坏他的不安定
他的故事是我和你爱情里的乌云

从我爱上爱他的你那个瞬间起
一直是雨天你只爱雨天我用伞保护你
亲吻着你苦涩味道的微笑
闭着眼睛我明白你想念他的秘密

我一直在第二顺位爱着你
一直从雨天一直到阴天
一直到晴天你逃离过去
我一直在第二顺位等着你
一直从昨天一直到今天
一直到永远我相信是我最爱你

聆听你说抱歉多过你说我爱你
你困在雨里我困在雨里我的伞湿淋淋
『没关系』是我最常说的一句
就让我等就算我冷至少我陪着你

我一直在第二顺位爱着你
一直从雨天一直到阴天
一直到晴天你逃离过去
我一直在第二顺位等着你
一直从昨天一直到今天
一直到永远我相信是我最爱你

我一直在第二顺位爱着你
一直从雨天一直到阴天
一直到晴天你逃离过去
我一直在第二顺位等着你
一直从昨天一直到今天
一直到永远我相信是我最爱你

2009-03-15T15:15:00.003+08:00

have change a new working environment at aburiya. its called aburiyatei. is just a small shop selling yakitori. though the shop is small, but still... work like dog!!! lol!

the food there smell nice, wanted to try too!! i want to try the kawa(chicken skin) there!!!! and alot alot more! especially the fish.. omg!! like damn nice when they bbq the fish ytd. oh ya, neh neh pok de chin chin.. ytd when i reached there, they asked me to pluck the hair from the chicken backside!! smlj!!! not easy you know.. damn lots of chicken backside la!! those hairs are like free-flow.. =.=

its a place for you to chill and enjoy the food there. its a nice place to go, but the price is not cheap either. anyone feel like dropping by just give me a call.. =D

wanted to bring you there on my next pay,
but i guess everything was too late...

2009-03-12T07:51:00.003+08:00

first to reach sch today. first time that early.
cant slp at home, just get done with everything and left home.
didnt manage to fall aslp.
alot of things been running through my mind.
very confuse.
very vex.
very lost.

2009-03-11T00:09:00.009+08:00

watched Kungfu Chef just now at cine. its kinda short about this movie. i think its ard 1h20min only. hong jin bao and vanness wu. not bad la.. quite funny though.. haha

just reached batok not long. kinda bored. play some dota and going slp soon =)

someone who cares about me.

someone who doesnt lies to me.

someone who doesnt hide things behind my back.

someone who doesnt break the promise.

someone who loves me.

where are you?

2009-03-10T09:30:00.002+08:00

first to reach sch today. everyday just repeating one day after another.. any interesting ideas of going anywhere?
still kinda stuck at webcam coding that i am doing. damn complicated la!! cant understand what the code is trying to say.. sian!!!
ah pui and potato haven reach, gonna wait for them to have breakfast..

2009-03-04T23:50:00.011+08:00

请告诉她
我不爱他
笑著难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话
别告诉她
我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答...

2009-03-03T03:42:00.005+08:00

just walk back to batok frm xb hse.. knn!! damn far la! i thought quite near.. neh neh pok!

lots of things waiting for me to understand myself.
maybe those things arent the right time for me yet.
no one is to blame in this, i hope no one will say about who is wrong or who is right.. pls...
i don want things to turn out ugly.
we are still friends afterall, you guys shld be happy for me.
thanks all these while that you guys are with me all along.

theres things i still cant let it go.
i shall let time solve my problem ba.
hope things are better for you too.
just wants you to be happy.
good lucks for ur first day job tml! =)

guan!
time to wake up!

2009-03-01T15:44:00.002+08:00

exams are just over, and tml gotta go school for VPP.. not even one week holidays was given to us.. sian!!! and we will be going monday - friday, 8am - 5pm everyday!! is it so much things that we have to do??!?!?! hahaaha..

baby still slping, is my connection here really that sucks meh? hahaha.. but seriously, sometimes loading damn slow la... haha...
went with her to tebrau city jusco to shop and eat. bought lots of seaweeds and a nivea whitening stuff to make her white white i think... lol!!

gotta go back later to celebrate joe birthday!! think alot ppl will be there yea! hope tonight will be an interesting night!! =D

HAPPY 22th BIRTHDAY JOE!!!

2009-02-25T19:39:00.001+08:00

Haru Haru...

2009-02-25T12:27:00.002+08:00

today is the last day of paper. finally the exam is going to finish. thanks vin for the wishes.
thanks xb, camen, hao and yang for bringing those things over to amk for me.. thanks alot =D

gonna do well for this paper. sure i can do it. good lucks to me and to others!!

after the paper, shld be going out later, but dont know where. haha.

going off for paper!!

been thinking alot these few days.
trying and trying to understand.
i only see things on the surface.
didnt have much thoughts in anything.
that the way i used to be.
i dont deny that my weak point,
i never give up.
i try and keep on trying.
hope you can understand.
sorry

2009-02-18T13:03:00.002+08:00

just woke up, had a nightmare.
had this strange feeelings,
the feelings wasnt nice.
hope was just a dream..

2009-02-17T23:16:00.002+08:00

will upload more photos on V day when i get the photos from baby.

just reach home from spore. exams are ard the corner, i wanna study! gonna read up abit at home and tml going back to find charles and camen to study tgt.

today was bernard birthday! happy 18th birthday!!! sorry that i couldnt make it to town with you today, going back to msia. hope you enjoy your day!

was at her house this afternoon. came too early, she was still slping and i woke her up.. make her lost her beauty slp. Sorry sorry` played l4d with her at her house, damn funny la!! one game we played campaign and the other we played VS mode. lol!! really damn funny. haha.. luckily i am not those that she feel like slapping.. haha.. had dinner at her house cooked by her mom. and went back home after that.

study.

2009-02-14T07:00:00.013+08:00

Happy Valentine's day to all! cant get to slp, was chatting with baby at batok. took the first bus over at baby place! she keep telling about her tofu face in the morning throughout the whole journey! omg! tofu here tofu there.. feel like eating tofu suddenly! lol!

Guan loves me guan loves me guan loves me~! Oh, me is jevonne. HAHAHA.
(type by that "me")

To the singles, doubles or triples, enjoy your V day! =D

2009-02-09T14:43:00.002+08:00

ytd work was damn tiring. was thinking of leaving early from work, but one stupid call frm the boss and 20+ ppl of his friends are coming over at the last min. only me, steven, lance and rui xin is working that day. work like dog!!

after all those work, went over to frankie house to play mahjong with vin and hud. won quite abit and went to hudson house for some slp. ZzZzZ

baby bought me pressy! thanks alot! its fitting =D didnt expect you to get anything for me.. was kinda surprise that you said you got something for me.. haha.
xie xie ni! <3

some things just cant forget,
maybe it just takes times.
still some insecureness,
maybe i think too much.

2009-02-04T19:36:00.001+08:00

damn the rain, wasted my trip over to sch then in the end the napfa was cancel..

damn!

meeting baby for dinner later at aburiya! =D
see ya later!

2009-02-04T18:54:00.000+08:00

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Being Alone While you may act like you don't care on the outside, on the inside your biggest fear is being alone. You can be quite shy and reserved. You feel like a lot of times people don't really see the real you. You're afraid that no one will really truly love you, and that you will be alone for the rest of your life. On the inside you are great person, so just remember that and don't let your shy nature get the best of you! If you don't want to be a lone then you need to make an effort to be with someone. Show the people that you care about that you really love them, and chances are someone will always be there, even if you think they won't.
Losing Someone
Looked down on
Disappointment
Where Your life is Going
Death
Commitment
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

2009-02-03T14:03:00.003+08:00

ytd night went to drink with vincent and hudson at iguana. what an idea vincent! he made us drink the mixture of alcohol.. damn !

thanks baby for coming to fetch me to camen house. went there to do our project and we played MAHJONG!!

omg! now in class, finished our review this morning. went out with xiaobai, camen, charles and joe to pizzahut. wasnt feeling well so didnt eat anything..
damn slpy la!! damn tired!!

i miss you jevonne!!

2009-01-25T08:52:00.004+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!

may all your wishes come true in this new year! =D

thanks for the call,

if not i wont be reaching home in the morning =D

2009-01-21T03:30:00.004+08:00

remember that time when me and kenny still laughing at vincent and charles when they becoming ER TOU, now its my turn. time pass damn fast.. haha

thanks to vincent, joe, camen, hao, guoli, xiong and jevonne. thanks vin alot!
starting i really thought jevonne was not coming le, because of those msgs she sent.
you guys really give me a shock when i saw her at vin's mom shop there. nice try ah guys.. haha
received a present frm jevonne! THANKS ALOT! =D

went to a family KTV at chinatown. leonard and xiaobai join us along. thanks both of you too!
afterwhich,went to play L4D at game heaven. like regular customer there liao.. LOL!!

time past fast, and its over and i am now 20!! sian!! also er tou le!! omg!! feel so old.... =.=
alright, gtg slp soon, tml still got sch!
thanks everyone for your msg! =D

i enjoyed myself today!

2009-01-13T00:55:00.002+08:00

kind of like blogging on that day that i went out with jevonne to buy her stuffs.
i could only say, she think she works as a money printer!!!

OMG!!! omg!!! OMG!!! omg!!!

first of all , went to see her make up stuffs. girls are extremely expensive creatures!
only on cosmetics can cost you alot!!

before purchase anything,
she told me that she wanna cultivate this habit of asking the question,
"how much is it?"
which i thought is a good thing, which will keeps a person frm spending alot.
BUT!!!!.................
yes! she did ask for every item for the price, but what she did was for the sake of asking.. muhahahahaha!!
=p =p =p =p =p

but think i learnt quite alot out of there. lol! i learnt that using cosmetics is the same as taking medicine... there is step by step de hor!! cannot anyhow de hor.. lol!
when using eye shadow, you must at least have some basic for arts, damn lots of mixture of colours ar! also cannot anyhow de!

afterwhich, xiaobai met us, he like one of that strawberry-smell stuff, dont know what is it anywhere, it just smells nice. haha

went to k-box after those shopping. but really cant sing!! damn sad.. cause of my coughing and sore throat. still waiting for the better xia you tian!! ^^

hope all the sick cats to get well soon!!!

2009-01-11T00:47:00.002+08:00

went to my grandma 80 yrs old bd tonight.. some of the dishes was quite delicious, didnt brought my hp there, didnt manage to take some pictures..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAI PO!!

2009-01-09T03:31:00.002+08:00

didnt know that open house was sooo fun!! lol! me and kenny went to watch the skaters performance at ard 3. after which, both of us went to convention centre to actually get up the tour bus with other sec sch ppl.

both of us act as though we are coming to NP to take a look ard the sch. there was this tour guide, she is frm BS yr 1. along the way, we asked alot of question regarding to NP, BTH AR!! keep laughing all the way! she was quite suspicious that we are poly students, but we just kept denied. HAHA! but we told her in the end though.

went ard the sch, trying to get free stuffs like, candy floss, kajang puteh, milo, sweet etc. but still, they are clever enough to check for sec sch ez-link in order to get the shoe bag!! damn!!

oh ya, once again, congrat the boy who found his happiness!! =D

2009-01-07T23:49:00.004+08:00

this is one video found by hudson during our FYP lesson.. haha.. i would like to share this with everyone..

THE STRONGEST FLY IN THE WORLD!!!